So PLEASE, I need as much feedback as possible because this is killing me.

Here's the situation (and I'll try to be brief about it): (don't be afraid to hurt me)

There's a guy and he talks to me a lot, and I'm almost suspecting that he likes me. He IM's me all the time and usually in class he asks me for help, and then does something nice in return.

... but he makes rude jokes as well. And he talks to this other girl as well, almost as much as me. um.. I don't know..

Player or for keeps?

here we are again.

suggestions?

we;; funny, there goes another of the same genre of day..

except I spent the morning crying out on the porch of the house.

Now everyone's mad at me./

i can't go one day without getting like this again.

phht. I malfunction. I cry.

I hate myself. I've been ridiculed, i've been just about everything. Including suicidal and depressed.

So tell me, whats wrong with me? Do I not communicate with everyone well enough?

Am I really the "fucking bitch" that my mom calls me? Don't pity me. Am I?

Why the hell am I here.  Why am I crying. Why is life so stupid, why I can't I see the bright side. Why do I need to see counsellors and pyciatrists. Why don't they leave me alone. Why am I mad at my mom, why is she mad at me.

The world is disgusting.

Why was I made, I hate me and the whole wide world. Why do I say these things. Why do I waste my time.

Sometimes I wish I'd just wilt and fade away/